i want to be fucking good at something.

everyone seems to be good at something and their friends and family seem to be so fucking proud of them. and here i am just average or below average at something. i want to be noticed for something im good at. i want people to be amazed at what they see. i want people to be scared of versing me in a sport because they know im good. i want someone to say that im a gun at what i do. i just want to be good at something. fuck.

people seem to have a habit of forgetting im there.

friends. parents. teachers.

my mum forgets to pick me up from netball.

my friends forget im there.

my teachers dont realise im in class.

am i invisible?

was thinking that being home alone away from my parents and sometimes my brother because hes never home would of been amazing.

its not. im so lonely. makes me overthink and think way too much.

i hate being alone. it sucks asshole.

so just sitting here, me and my thoughts.

so so lonely.

fuck i hate having anxiety

everyones in a shit, sad, angry or really depressed mood tonight and im freaaaaaaaakinh out

im worried and anxious and i dont know why

im worried about everyone

why cant everyone be okay

why cant everyone be happy :(

yeah i give up